Monday, April 16, 2012

The puppet master

I hope that one day I will be able to be me. Maybe some day me being me wont interfere with everyone else's plans and they won't mind so much if I have my own opinions. If I do what I want to do. If I smile at what makes me happy. Laugh at what I think is funny.
Maybe one of these days people won't treat me as their puppet. One day the strings will be cut and they will just let me be me.

Sunday, April 15, 2012

10,000 Reasons

There has been so many heavy issues weighing on my heart lately. My eyes fill with tears daily as the sadness overwhelms me. I can't let that take over me anymore though. There are reasons why I am sad but when you think about it there are so many more reasons to smile and rejoice in these beautiful days we've been given. I may not know His exact plans for me yet but I do know that they will be great! I love an amazing God!  

Saturday, April 14, 2012

Oh how glorious He is

On Easter weekend my sister and her two girls got water baptized! It was amazing being able to witness it. I am so happy and proud of them! Praise Jesus, He is AMAZING!
Afterwards: Me, Kenzie, Marisa(my sister), Jayden, and my Momma
Here is the Easter Service from Church. I hope you get a chance to watch it, it was great!

Easter 2012 (Welcome Home) from Church on the Move on Vimeo.

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Foxy Love

My heart is heavy with sadness and my eyes are filled with tears. Tonight is a hard one. I miss my foxy girls.

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

I cry

I wake up in the middle of the night and I cry. I hold my pillow over my face to muffle the sound and I cry.
I cry and I cry and I cry.
I cry because I miss you but most of all I cry because of what you left behind. Who you left behind. They are all heartbroken but there is one in particular I'm scared of losing. She is in the dark and fading fast.
You were the shining light, the glorious smile that lit up our lives and showed us the way. Without you here it is darker and it is colder. I need you to help her. I know you are still there. I know you are standing right behind her, arms wrapped around her keeping her from falling but she needs to feel you, hear you, hold you. She needs you. I can't do what you did. I can't be who you were. I can't say what you would say.
I don't know what more to do. I'm lifting my hands up to God and sending hugs and kisses to you. Help me. Please. Show me what I'm suppose to do to help her get through.