Monday, January 23, 2012

God You Lifted Me Out

I disappeared for awhile. I hid in my bed only waking when I had to. I prayed. I talked to God. Slowly day by day the feeling of a million needles pricking my arms making them tingle faded away.  I've been able to leave the house and not feel completely overwhelmed. The anxiety has subsided. It was two weeks that felt like years going by. I don't know what caused it or why it was happening as I usually don't but man is it a scary feeling. Being in a place that you don't understand, having feelings that you don't want to feel and not being able to make them stop. Anxiety. It's not something that is just in your head. It can make you physically ill and unable to function. I thank God that He lifted me out.

COTM - Stuck In A Rut - Part 2

Stuck In A Rut - Part 2 from Church on the Move on Vimeo.

COTM - Stuck In A Rut - Part 3

Stuck In A Rut - Part 3 from Church on the Move on Vimeo.

It took a lot to get myself to church on Saturday night. I had to force myself to go. I wanted to go that wasn't the problem it was that I was afraid I would have an anxiety attack as I have had one there before. I knew that it was where I needed to be though. I am so glad I went. In the video above - part 3- we sang a song that had only two lyrics: God you lifted me out; And I'll tell all the world.  It was exactly what I needed to hear. I had been praying to God so much and when we started singing this song it was like He was giving me a big ole hug reassuring me that I didn't need to be scared anymore because He lifted me out.
God is AMAZING!!!!

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Bittersweet Dreams

I dreamed of you last night. You were a girl this time. It seemed like a silly dream when I first recounted it. The feeling that came with it though, aww that was unbelievable. It was so lifelike, so real. I can't wait until it becomes a reality. I love you. Now, always and forever.

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Partners in Crime

Since little girls(not the ones pictured above) we have been best friends. We were inseparable, always together, writing notes, getting in trouble, having to sit in the hall, having to write our names in the black book only one of us didn't do it like they were suppose to do so said person got a treat at the end of the week when they weren't suppose to and yes it still ticks me off! Cheater!! :)  She moved away in the seventh grade. We remained friends. She would visit me, I would visit her. We locked each other(okay okay, I ran inside and locked the door) outside with lizards on our(HER) back. We went to parties, cleaned puke off moms car with the window washer at the gas station. Introduced each other to ex-boyfriends. Kept each other from stripping naked, kept each or well SAID person from letting her mom know she was piss-drunk when she just wanted to keep on talking to momma. Lost our baby turtle in the backyard, poor turtle - he survived the road trip from Missouri to Texas and then we just toss him outside expecting him to wait around for us. We've been to Sea World and got to pet and hold penguins. Summer vacations at the lake house. Get away snacks at Plain Jane's.  We've been through a lot. We've shed tears, shared laughs, survived grandma farts. We've done it all and most of all we've remained best friends from 504 miles apart and after 24+ years we are still just as close.
Did I mention that she is here visiting this week for my son's birthday and that we are going to get into so much trouble!! Oh let the good times roll!!

This chick is why I raise money to help find a cure for Cystic Fibrosis. Can you help? It doesn't matter if you have a couple of dollars, five, ten, fifty, hundred. Whatever you have to give helps! You can donate online by going to my great strides account. If you don't like giving online you can give cash, check, or money order and I will turn it in on the day of the walk(not until 5/12/12).

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Pick A Color..

I found this on the almighty Pinterest. I thought it was pretty interesting. DO NOT ready what each color block says. First, look at the colors and pick your favorite one. Which one are you gravitated to the most? Okay now go read what it says. Does it fit you?

What do you think? I picked peacock and fig because I of course couldn't just pick one. I thought peacock was pretty dead on for me.....oh except for the patient part. Ha!

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

To my Foxy Girls

There is so much going on in all of our lives and we aren't always going to be together in the same place but I know that we will all always be together in our hearts. I love you girls always.