I disappeared for awhile. I hid in my bed only waking when I had to. I prayed. I talked to God. Slowly day by day the feeling of a million needles pricking my arms making them tingle faded away. I've been able to leave the house and not feel completely overwhelmed. The anxiety has subsided. It was two weeks that felt like years going by. I don't know what caused it or why it was happening as I usually don't but man is it a scary feeling. Being in a place that you don't understand, having feelings that you don't want to feel and not being able to make them stop. Anxiety. It's not something that is just in your head. It can make you physically ill and unable to function. I thank God that He lifted me out.
COTM - Stuck In A Rut - Part 2
Stuck In A Rut - Part 2 from Church on the Move on Vimeo.
COTM - Stuck In A Rut - Part 3
Stuck In A Rut - Part 3 from Church on the Move on Vimeo.
It took a lot to get myself to church on Saturday night. I had to force myself to go. I wanted to go that wasn't the problem it was that I was afraid I would have an anxiety attack as I have had one there before. I knew that it was where I needed to be though. I am so glad I went. In the video above - part 3- we sang a song that had only two lyrics: God you lifted me out; And I'll tell all the world. It was exactly what I needed to hear. I had been praying to God so much and when we started singing this song it was like He was giving me a big ole hug reassuring me that I didn't need to be scared anymore because He lifted me out.
God is AMAZING!!!!
Monday, January 23, 2012
Friday, January 13, 2012
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
I dreamed of you last night. You were a girl this time. It seemed like a silly dream when I first recounted it. The feeling that came with it though, aww that was unbelievable. It was so lifelike, so real. I can't wait until it becomes a reality. I love you. Now, always and forever.
Saturday, January 7, 2012
This chick is why I raise money to help find a cure for Cystic Fibrosis. Can you help? It doesn't matter if you have a couple of dollars, five, ten, fifty, hundred. Whatever you have to give helps! You can donate online by going to my great strides account. If you don't like giving online you can give cash, check, or money order and I will turn it in on the day of the walk(not until 5/12/12).
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
I found this on the almighty Pinterest. I thought it was pretty interesting. DO NOT ready what each color block says. First, look at the colors and pick your favorite one. Which one are you gravitated to the most? Okay now go read what it says. Does it fit you?
What do you think? I picked peacock and fig because I of course couldn't just pick one. I thought peacock was pretty dead on for me.....oh except for the patient part. Ha!