Tuesday, July 23, 2013

I haven't seen you in so long. I wish for you to come visit me in my dreams tonight.

Saturday, June 8, 2013

I've been extremely busy since I started working. It took awhile to get things into a routine around here but things are starting to fall into place. The kid just finished up with his first season of baseball - we are sad to see it end but very excited for the future baseball seasons to come. I started a new shift at work so now I will be off in the late afternoons/early evenings so that means more family time which we def need. We've contemplated getting rid of cable and the Internet ::GULP::!!! I'm not sure how well I would handle it but with that said maybe that's a good reason to get rid of it, at least for a little bit. I love how socially connected we all are nowadays but I also want to get back to the basics. We are trying to do things outside the house more. We've been going fishing some and then spending time outside each night. Its been really nice. We have plans for the summer to keep us out of the house more! Fun!!

I know I haven't been writing much AT ALL. I hope to get back into it, I miss it. I've just been so busy with work and baseball that by the time I get home I'm ready for dinner and bed.

Saturday, April 13, 2013

No respect.

I wish you could see what you are doing to them. What you are doing to all of us. Can you not see it? Or maybe you do and you choose to ignore it. Maybe you just dont care, I wish I knew what you were thinking.
It's killing them, you know.
I will never forgive you for this.


Sunday, April 7, 2013

At least you

I thought at least you would understand. I thought if no one then at least you had my back. Now even that isn't true. I am alone in this. It is my battle. My fight. My suffering.

Thursday, April 4, 2013

I was nervous but decided that I would...

....just go for it. We needed money. I needed a job. I put my big girl britches on and walked in to turn my application in and BAM I got the job. If you are a regular reader than you know that I suffer from really bad anxiety and nervousness. So it was a complete shock to me at how easy going and talkative I was being. I just didn't care. If I got the job then I got it and if I didn't - well who cares I'd never see these people again. I am so glad I got the job. I love the people I work with. I love working. Who ever thought I'd say that!? Ha!  Are there days that are stressful? Of course there are but my days are also filled with chatter and laughter and a bunch of kiddos that love to offer up hugs and cuddles. I'm proud of myself that I did what needed to be done to help my family. The only thing that I need to work on now is getting a routine down for keeping up with the house between work and baseball.
The Blog Dare on Bloggy Moms
*This post was written as part of Bloggy Moms: The Blog Dare. Todays writing prompt is - I was nervous but decided that I would....  If you'd like to participate feel free to link up with your own post at the link posted above.*

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

When the truth finally came out...

There was heartache and sadness. There was anger. There were words that were spoken that can never be taken back. Things will never be the way they were because of the things you felt, the things you said, the hurt you caused.

Words that left scars on my heart for always.
The Blog Dare on Bloggy Moms
*This post was written as part of Bloggy Moms: The Blog Dare. Todays writing prompt was - When the truth finally came out...  If you'd like to participate feel free to link up with your own post at the link posted above.*

Monday, April 1, 2013

There were so many....

There were so many...


So many words that I could of said. That I wish I would of said. That I still say in my head from time to time. Words that are lingering on the tip of my tongue just waiting for the moment they can be released. I have wished them away, I've tried swallowing them but yet they remain. It's a battle I'm still fighting within myself and you have no idea. I'm not sure you would even care if I told you. I wait for time to pass and the words to dissolve. I've decided that I'm okay with whatever happens between us, good or bad - it is what it is and I'm okay with it.
The Blog Dare on Bloggy Moms
*This post was written as part of Bloggy Moms: The Blog Dare. Todays writing prompt was - There were so many.... If you'd like to participate feel free to link up with your own post at the link posted above.*

Sunday, March 17, 2013

365 days

Its been three hundred and sixty five days since you took your last breath.
That's 31,536,000 seconds.  Its been 525,600 minutes since you left.
Eight thousand seven hundred and sixty long hours.
52 weeks.

Its been one year since you left us, and not a single day goes by that you are not thought of. You will forever live on in my heart and my memories. I look forward to the day that I get to see you again and hug you in Heaven. My beautiful sweet foxy, you are missed. You are loved.

Thursday, March 14, 2013


I've been working a lot and when I'm not working I'm usually sleeping or cleaning house. My emotions have been staying in tact for the most part but I have had a couple of incidents, one taking place yesterday. I've been feeling too raw and exposed to write lately. I feel like I'm a circus freak and everything is just out there for the world to see and everyone is looking at me and judging me. Laughing at me and taunting me. I wish people could understand things better and not take things so personally. Maybe its me that takes it personally. Maybe I make it more than what it should be. More than what it is. After all it is my problem, not theirs. Just because I seem fine doesn't mean I am fine. Its a day by day, minute by minute situation. I don't want to be the victim, I don't want to be the Debbie downer but I can't always control how I'm feeling and with that comes my moments of anger and frustration, sadness and heartache. Tears and frowns. I can put a smile on my face but I don't always feel it and if you look closely you'll see the sadness in my eyes. Tomorrow will be a better day....I hope.

Someday's Gonna Come by Jasmine Ash
I heard this song last night on MTV when I was watching Washington Heights(love this show btw!). I couldn't find a video to share but there is one here. You can also go and download a free copy of the song here.

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

-Review- Unglued Devotional

UNGLUED Devotional
By: Lysa TerKeurst
I don't think I have ever read a book before where it felt like the author was speaking directly to me or that they were so in tune with my own thoughts and feelings. This devotional felt more like a guide to me. Every daily devotion taught me a lesson that I needed/wanted to learn. Now that I've finished the book I've been keeping it in my car and when I'm waiting in the school pick up line its a good time for me to grab it and reread a lesson or two. Its been so helpful for me in times of frustration and uncertainty. I feel refreshed and at peace after reading through a chapter that speaks to me. I don't just go chapter by chapter but sometimes just thumb through until I find what I need to hear. Each daily chapter starts with scripture and the Thought for the Day. Then it goes into the quick reading lesson. My favorite part is at the end, each lesson ends with a prayer. Sometimes I still feel like I'm not sure if I'm saying the right things or if I'm doing this prayer thing right, so this has been a guide for me in the prayer department. I love finding books like this that aren't just a one time read, it is a daily guide for me that I will continue to read over and over.

Book Description:
This companion devotional to the bestselling book Unglued provides encouragement to help readers handle emotional struggles. Including a daily opening Scripture, Thought for the Day, devotion, and closing prayer, this book helps readers begin a 60-day journey in learning to positively process raw emotions, such as fear, anger, and regret.

I received this book from the publisher in exchange for an honest review. No other compensation was provided.

Sunday, February 24, 2013


I should be writing about how I'm recovering from my first couple of weeks at work instead I'm referring to the horrible stomach virus that I've been fighting for a week now. I'm hoping I have seen the last of it but I won't know for sure until tomorrow. Prayers please. I ended up missing several days of work because of it, not a good thing when its only your second week. I went to the doctor so I had a note plus all the kiddos also had it so its obvious I wasn't faking it but still it was only my second week there. I really really like working at the daycare. I worried at first it may be a bit much for me with the whole infertility thing but its not. I LOVE it! The people are great, the kids are adorable(sometimes Ha!) and I just really enjoy having something to look forward to. Its not easy work by any means. You are on your feet the entire time and you are constantly doing something, its hard on my back but nothing that a little ibuprofen can't take care of. The kid gets to go with me so I don't have to pay for daycare and while I'm not working with him I can still check in on him and if he needs me I'm there. I have prayed about this a lot and have had many of conversations with God and I strongly feel that this is where I'm meant to be. I can see myself here long term. I see the future and where I want to be in my life and I see this place being a part of that. It may sound silly to some but I really honestly feel that. I think a lot of things will be changing because of this new adventure I'm on. Its the first of many stepping stones to a happier me. Have you ever came across something where you could see where it fit into your life? Like you could see how it would change and shape the future? How by making this one choice all the other things would fall into place. I can see that. I can picture it and it looks amazing! I'm really excited about this and I hope everyone can be happy for me. I know things are changing and I'm going in a different direction as you now but its a good change for me and I hope you can see that and want that for me.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013


Lately I've been getting up at the crack of dawn. Its probably been a little later than that but it makes me appear to be super wife getting up so early to make breakfast for my man. I am a easy riser. I can get up at any time and not have to lay in bed hiding under the blankets first. I'm not so quick to go straight into being a domestic wife though. I've been having to get up and go right to the kitchen and start his breakfast. Its hard for me to function that early so I do not take responsibility for the burnt bacon. It'd be awesome to be the perfect 50s housewife, but that's not me.  I'm tired. I want to crawl back into bed after he leaves but by that time the kid is waking and I wouldn't have enough time to sleep anyways. As much as I complain(its in my nature) I have enjoyed sending him off with a belly full of food and giving the kid a full spread of breakfast to choose from, even though he still thinks he has to eat both at home and at school. It really starts the day off great. It sets the tone. We have finally gotten adjusted to this new start and it may be coming to a halt. Why? Because this stay at home mommy is now a working mom! Yep you read it right. I got a job! I'm between happy and sad about it. If it was up to me and all of the cards fell where they were suppose to I would be a stay at home mom forever. However, my kid is off to school and my second baby hasn't arrived yet and we have bills stacking up so I'm doing what needs to be done to help provide for my family. It feels good to know I will be helping. It won't be much but it will be something. It will be making sure we have groceries in the fridge and gas for the cars. The best part, I get to take the kid with me. For FREE! It will be an adjustment for sure but I think its going to be a good one. I'm not sure what the hours will be yet, I will most likely work a combination of mornings and evenings. So I'm going to need to find some homemade frozen breakfast recipes and some quick throw together crockpot meals. I'm excited for what the future holds. I'll be getting out of the house, being more active and bringing home the dough. Life is great.

Monday, February 11, 2013

Have you missed me?

I've missed you.

I've been playing nurse if you were wondering where I've been. Someone needs to put this house in a bubble because these germs are overpowering all the Clorox in the area. I think Pre-K will be the death of us all. Since December one, some, or all of us have been sick every week and weekend. Its crazy ridiculous. Recently my husband was down with strep and pink eye. This man NEVER gets sick. Like EVER. Yet he came down with Pneumonia, strep and pink eye all within the last month and a half. Poor guy! I think we are finally all well but who knows what will happen by the end of the week with the kiddo heading back to school today. Prayers for health would be greatly appreciated!

In the meantime though I've had a handful of products come in to try out so be on the lookout for some reviews and I have some great coupons to giveaway for some free/highly discounted products.

What are some of your #1 tips on keeping the germs at bay? Do you have a good hand lotion recommendation? My hands are so dry they are cracking from all the hand washing and antibacterial gel.

Monday, January 28, 2013

Just Like Jesus -Review-

Just Like Jesus
by Max Lucado
A Heart like His.

He wants you to "think and act like Christ Jesus." Phil. 2:5

Gods plan for you is nothing short of a new heart.

A forgiving, compassionate, listening, God-intoxicated, worship-hungry, focused, honest, pure, hope-filled, rejoicing and enduring heart.

There are twelve chapters in this book and each one focuses on different areas of your heart, teaching you how to be just like Jesus. There is a study guide for each chapter in the back of the book that challenges you to take a deeper look into your own heart and see how things could be. I have highlighted, underlined and made notes all through this book. I highly recommend this book.
My favorite quote from this book is:
From the basin of his grace, he scoops a palm full of mercy and washes away our sin.

Book Description

God loves you just the way you are, but he refuses to leave you there. He wants you to be just like Jesus.

Can you think of a better offer?

Jesus felt no guilt; God wants you to feel no guilt. Jesus had no bad habits; God wants to do away with yours. Jesus had no fears; God wants the same for you. Jesus had no anxiety about death; you needn't either. God's desire, his plan, his ultimate goal is to make you into the image of Christ.

But how does this change occur? And why does the change seem so slow? If God wants me to be just like Jesus, why do I still seem just like me?

In Just Like Jesus, Max Lucado helps you answer these questions. He helps you understand God's wonderful ways of transformation. Would you like to know more? Then read on. And remember: God loves you just way you are, but he refuses to leave you there. He wants you to be just like Jesus.

I received a copy of this book from BookSneeze in exchange for my honest review, whether it be negative or positive. No other compensation was provided.

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Emmy Rossums Sentimental Journey -Review-

Are you a music lover like myself? Is there one particular genre that you like more than the others? If you are a regular reader than you know that I love praise and worship music the best. Its just what I am drawn to but I really do love all kinds of music and have a wide collection on my iPod. With that said, I was excited to get the opportunity to review Emmy Rossum's album Sentimental Journey. I enjoyed the album, it isn't something I would normally listen to but her voice is absolutely beautiful and soulful. Plus I have to admit I caught myself dancing around my room while I was listening to it this afternoon. ::Blush::

On Sentimental Journey, the multi-talented actress and singer brings her stellar voice to songs popularized by some of the most beloved artists of the last century. It is a collection of classic covers with each song representing a month of the year.

Sentimental Journey Track Listing:
  1. “Sentimental Journey” (Les Brown, Ben Homer, Arthur Green)
  2. “The Object Of My Affection” (Pinky Tomlin)
  3. “I’m Looking Over A Four Leaf Clover “(Mort Dixon, Harry M. Woods)
  4. “These Foolish Things (Remind Me Of You)” (Eric Maschwitz, Jack Strachey)
  5. “(I’ll Be With You) In Apple Blossom Time” (Albert Von Tilzer, Neville Fleeson)
  6. “Summer Wind” (Heinz Meier, Johnny Mercer)
  7. “Many Tears Ago” (Winfield Scott)
  8. “All I Do Is Dream Of You” (Nacio Herb Brown, Arthur Freed)
  9. “Nobody Knows You When You’re Down And Out” (Jimmy Cox)
  10. “Autumn Leaves” (Joseph Kosma, Jacques PrĂ©vert)
  11. “Things” (Bobby Darin)
  12. “Pretty Paper” (Willie Nelson)

Rossum is also an acclaimed actress who currently stars in the Showtime series Shameless with William H. Macy. She also stars alongside Emma Thompson and Viola Davis in the upcoming feature film Beautiful Creatures, which hits theaters on February 13th.

Emmy will be performing a track from her new album on Access Hollywood Live on January 25th. She will also be appearing as a guest on Conan on January 28th, Chelsea Lately on January 29th, and The Late Late Show with Craig Ferguson on February 6th.  

You can pick up your copy of Sentimental Journey on January 29th on Amazon or iTunes.

I participated in this campaign for One2One Network. I received a free copy of the CD to facilitate my review. By posting, I am eligible for incentives. All opinions stated are my own.

Tuesday, January 22, 2013


We all live for those little moments of Oh! when we look and feel our best. The feeling of Oh! when you button up your favorite old jeans ... and they fit! Or the Oh! you get from your friends when you walk into a room confidently sporting a new dress! Those moments of Oh! are some of the best of our lives! When's the last time you had one of those moments? Who's said Oh! lately in your life?
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Tuesday, January 15, 2013


I saw the two lines, they were just there, now there's only one. Am I crazy? Take another test...wait the right about of time....one line. I guess they tell you to wait 3 to 5 minutes for a reason. For those long 5 minutes though...the next 9 months played out in my head. It's not my time yet but for those few minutes I thought it was.....

Monday, January 14, 2013


A hot cup of coffee with a friend. Cuddled up in a warm blanket with a book. A rainy day with the blinds open. Family and friends. I find comfort in all of these things. Sometimes life just gets you down. Sometimes we just don't feel like ourselves. We have to remember to take care and time for ourselves.

What things do you do for you?
Do you remember to take a timeout for yourself?

One thing I have been doing lately that I find comfort in is genealogy research. My husband thinks its the most boring thing ever but I find it relaxing and exciting. I'm finding things out about my family that I had no idea about. Its so interesting .I've found old family pictures of my grandfather, Census reports, marriage licenses and death certificates. There is no telling what else is out there to be discovered.

I challenge you this week to take an hour or two and use that time just for you. Do something you enjoy.  Do something that will help recharge you so you can continue to give your all to your family and friends. So what will you decide to do?

The Blog Dare on Bloggy Moms
*This post was written as part of Bloggy Moms: The Blog Dare. Todays writing prompt was - I find comfort among. If you'd like to participate feel free to link up with your own post at the link posted above.*

Something for you

I bought you something today. I know I shouldn't have but its hard not to. I tried to put it back but it wasn't happening. I can imagine you wearing it one day. It's adorable. I can't wait to dress you in it. Lately you come see me in all of my dreams. Its so bittersweet. I wish to dream of you and then I wake wishing the pain wasn't there. I wouldn't trade those dreams for anything though other than you being here in my arms. One day, my child, one day. Promise.

Friday, January 11, 2013

My Patchwork Heart

It's hard pretending to be okay all the time. It leaves it to when you aren't okay nobody really listens. Its in one ear out the other. Its hurtful. How am I suppose to say anything though? It took all that I had just to say I was hurting. If I say something about being sad people always tell me to turn to God and have faith that he will fulfill all of my hearts desires. God is my life. I talk to him all the time. I pray to him. I pour my heart out and tell him all of my wants and needs and I know that he will give me all of my hearts desires in his timing. I love my God. I have hope and faith. With that being said, am I not allowed to have moments of sadness? Trust me, I wish I didn't hurt from this. I wish this didn't consume my thoughts. I wish I could not think of my sadness when you talk about your happiness. I can't always keep my heart patched, sometimes the wounds show through. I just wish it didn't feel like it didn't matter.

KJV Bride's Bible - Review-


Book Description

Make God’s Word your everyday traveling companion. Thin and lightweight, Thomas Nelson’s KJV Compact UltraSlim™ Bible boasts a complete and easy-to-read Bible that is ready to go when you are! A Bible you can be comfortable taking with you every day and everywhere you go, the Compact UltraSlim Bible is thin enough to tuck into your purse, briefcase, backpack, or glove compartment, yet large enough for easy readability. The Compact UltraSlim Bible is the perfect gift and ideal companion for today’s Christian on the move.
Features include:
*Presentation page *Self-pronouncing text *Words of Jesus in red *Concordance *Full-color maps

My Opinion
This has got to be one of the most beautiful bibles I have ever seen. The cover looks like a lacey silk like you would find on your wedding dress. It is gorgeous. It truly is the perfect bible to give to a bride on her special day. It is the perfect purse size. For such a small little bible it has everything you need in it.

I received this book free from BookSneeze.com as part of their book review blogger program in exchange for an honest review whether it be negative or positive. The opinions I have expressed are my own.

Thursday, January 10, 2013

2013 Reading List

I love to read. I tend to go through reading spurts though. I'll read book after book after book hardly ever setting them down to not reading for a couple of months. I'm going to try to finish all the books I list here at some point this year - I will cross them off as I go. I could find a million books to read but I know I wouldn't get them all done this year so I'll try to narrow it down. These are in no particular order.

One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp
Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn
The Good Father by Diane Chamberlain
The Midwife's Confession by Diane Chamberlain (anything by her really!)
The Choice by Nicholas Sparks
Chill Factor by Sandra Brown
Still Life by Joy Fielding

That's all for now. I will add to it as I come across things. What are some books on your list to read this year? Who is your favorite author?
The Blog Dare on Bloggy Moms

*This post was written as part of Bloggy Moms: The Blog Dare. Todays writing prompt was - My 2013 Reading List. If you'd like to participate feel free to link up with your own post at the link posted above.*

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

School changes?

Todays writing prompt is -- Schools Should.....
I don't have much to say on the topic. This is the kiddos first year at public school and he only goes for three hours a day. The only thing at this point in our school adventure that I would change would be better food! :) Not that its not healthy, I just know that my kiddo doesn't care for the taste of the breakfast items. Other than that, we have no complaints and really that isn't a complaint either - we are just picky around here.
I've actually been extremely satisfied with the school year so far. I can see a difference in my kiddo on a daily basis. He has always been one smart cookie but he just absorbing so much more this year than he did last year. He is brilliant! I'm not bias either! :) Love that boy!
The Blog Dare on Bloggy Moms
*This post was written as part of Bloggy Moms: The Blog Dare. Todays writing prompt was - Schools should.... If you'd like to participate feel free to link up with your own post at the link posted above.*

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Class Bully

There was a discussion that took place in my sons class a while back in regards to one of his classmates. The student was labeled a bully. The child was not at school that day and so he is unaware of the conversation the entire class had about him. I nor any of the other moms I spoke with were happy about this situation. I did not feel like it was right. I was not happy that my son was told information that I did not think he needed to know. He was also told to do things that I as a parent do not agree with. Luckily my child has not had any problems with this other student and I hope it continues that way. However, labeling this child as a bully has a majorly negative impact on my child. I do not feel like the child is a bully. Is he too rough with the other kids? Yes. Do the kids sometimes get hurt by him? Yes. Is he doing it on purpose? I'm not sure. Some may say he is being a bully in fact I know some say he is, I just don't feel that way. I've heard that his family is going through hard times(sibling illness) and I really feel that this other child just needs more compassion and love, maybe even some counseling.  I do not think what he does is right by any means and if my child gets hurt of course I will want to hunt his mother down BUT I do not agree with bullying the bully at age four to five. My son refers to this kid as a bully now. He talks about this kid often in reference to what he was told during the class discussion that was had. Several other students that I've been around have also repeated the same things about this child. I don't feel that it is right. I try to teach my son how I want him to behave and how I would hope that he would handle certain situations and types of people. Its hard to reteach when the ones we are suppose to trust with our children are teaching them something completely opposite.
The Blog Dare on Bloggy Moms
  *This post was written as part of Bloggy Moms: The Blog Dare. Todays writing prompt was - Negative Impact.  If you'd like to participate feel free to link up with your own post at the link posted above.*

Its official...

I have a five year old. I can't believe my baby boy is growing up so fast. This morning as we walked into the school I went to hold his hand and he pulled it away from me and tucked it under his arm. I said what now that you are five you are to big to hold mommas hand. He replied with, "Mom, I'm a big boy now I hold my own hand!" WHAT?! I told him he was breaking my heart and that big boys can still hold their mommas hand and he caved! Whew. Close call. It feels like he has grown up overnight.
Happy Birthday Kiddo!

Monday, January 7, 2013

Busy Bee

Have you ever felt so overwhelmed with things to do that even though you are getting things done it feels like you haven't done anything at all? Sometimes it doesn't matter how much we get done there are still a million other things in the waiting line. I feel like I have been going from one thing to the next since November. I have a break period for awhile so I am trying to focus on getting things done around the house. I have a guest bedroom that has recently became the storage room. I started working on it yesterday and it won't take me long to clean up but we have little storage place so now I have to find new places to put things without just making more clutter. I also have some craft projects that I've bought all the stuff for and I just need to sit down and make them.

Things I have that I need to start/finish:
Buzz pillows for my kiddo and his best friend.
Scripture wall art
Picture flower pots
Organize my art stuff and find a place for it

Things I would like to do around the house:
Put in shelves in my hall coat closet and in my sons closet.
Organize my spare room closet and add in shelves
Make some curtains for the living room and bedroom.
Find more kitchen space....add-on? New house? :)

What projects are you working on?
*This post was written as part of Bloggy Moms: The Blog Dare. Todays writing prompt was - Other projects I'm working on.  If you'd like to participate feel free to link up with your own post at the link posted above.*

Saturday, January 5, 2013

2013 Health Commitment

I am not going to go on a diet.
I am not going to exercise until I can't move.
I am not going to kill myself trying to lose weight.

I am going to eat healthier.
I am going to be more active.
I am going to be happy with me.

That is my health commitment for 2013. To be a healthier happier ME. If with that comes a smaller number on the scale then that's great but my main goal is to just be healthy and to be me.
The Blog Dare on Bloggy Moms
*This post was written as part of Bloggy Moms: The Blog Dare. Todays writing prompt was - Health Commitment of 2013. If you'd like to participate feel free to link up with your own post at the link posted above.*

Friday, January 4, 2013

Unexpected Changes of 2012

Are we ever really ready for changes in our lives? There is no way I ever could of prepared myself for the changes that took place in my life last year. If I had to title the changes of last year I would name it 'Stolen Friendships'. Just about all of my closest friendships changed and all right about the same time too. One of my girls moved away, one drifted,  one passed away and one took a leave of absence. It was a difficult year for me. I felt alone and abandoned. I felt confused and sad. I had health problems. I had six months of not knowing if I was okay or not. I was sad a lot of the year. I never would of imagined that that was how my year would go. If I had the opportunity to go back in time and prepare myself for what was to come I'm not sure I would even know what to say except for to treasure the time you have with the ones you love so dear and to guard and protect your heart. We all go through things in life and we all handle them differently. In a time when I needed my friends the most, a time I thought we would all grow closer...the exact opposite occurred. I learned that sometimes you have to be your own best friend. I'm glad 2012 is over with, it was too much for me to handle. I'm ready for this new year and all the great things that will come with it.
The Blog Dare on Bloggy Moms
*This post was written as part of Bloggy Moms: The Blog Dare. Todays writing prompt was - Changes I didn't expect for 2012. If you'd like to participate feel free to link up with your own post at the link posted above.*

Thursday, January 3, 2013

Worry and Concern

Heading into the new year what worries and concerns might I have? None. Are you sure? Absolutely!

I will not allow myself to be worried about things that I have no control over. The only thing that ever comes out of worry and concern for me is anxiety and I have a hard enough time with that, that I don't need to add to it.

Isaiah 41:10 (CEV)
Don't be afraid. I am with you. Don't tremble with fear. I am your God. I will make you strong, as I protect you with my arm and give you victories.

Matthew 6:34 (NIV)
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

I will stand strong in my faith and everything else will work itself out.
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*This post was written as part of Bloggy Moms: The Blog Dare. Todays writing prompt was - What worries or concerns do you have heading into the new year. If you'd like to participate feel free to link up with your own post at the link posted above.*

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

2013 Bucket List

What I want to do before 2013 is over with.....

Hmmm...oh I don't know....get Knocked Up maybe! :)
I'm pretty sure that will be my number one thing every year until it happens, but one of these times it will happen and I can mark it off. That will be a glorious day!

Other things I hope to do are -
Read more - I've finished one book already this year. Safe Haven by Nicholas Sparks. Have you read it? I really enjoyed it and can't wait for the movie to come out next month.
Meet my nephew - He will be born in April. He will live far far away but I hope to take a road trip to meet him and see my beautiful niece too. I love my second family.
Enroll in school - I've talked on this before. I know what I want to do I just need to get the ball rolling.
Vacation - My family has never really been on a vacation together before. My husband took me to my best friends wedding years and years ago but that was such a short trip that I don't count it as a vacation. I'd love it if we could take the kid to Disney World either this year or the next. That would be amazing. I've never been and would love to go.

I don't really have anything else that I can think of but I'm sure there is a million things. Maybe its better that I don't think on this one for too long..once I get started it may be hard to stop, especially if I think about things around the house that I'd like done. :)
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*This post was written as part of Bloggy Moms: The Blog Dare. Todays writing prompt was - 2013 Bucket List - what I want to get done before 2013 is over with. If you'd like to participate feel free to link up with your own post at the link posted above.*

Starting new

Its a new day. Its a new year. Its a time to start new.
Resolutions? Nah.. I've never been one to really stick with them - (read previous post). Instead I have hopes and ideas for my life and I have faith in God and what He has in store for me.

My hope for myself this year is to....Grow. Learn. Live. Contentment.

I want to listen to Him and really understand what He is saying to me. I pray for clarity.

As I've said before, last year was not my year. So much pain and suffering. So many things broken. Now that things are coming back together and the pieces are being mended it doesn't make it all fixed. There is a lot of underlining issues that haven't been resolved. There is still a lot of pain and hurt under the surface. There is confusion still. There is heartache.

I pray.

I pray for understanding. I pray for love. I pray for friendships. I pray for the lost and confused. I pray for healing.

I pray and I praise. A beautiful God, a beautiful life.

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Broken resolutions of years past...

The only resolutions I ever remember making have always been the two most common(I'm sure) ones that you always hear...to quit smoking and to lose weight. Neither of which I ever succeeded in doing as a New Years resolution. I have quit smoking though. Yay for me. Its been a long time though and I did it just because....more like forced to quit but either way its done and over with and I'm happier and healthier because of it. I need to focus on losing weight but where I'm at in life I need to focus more on just being happy and I think the rest will fall into place(& with that hopefully the weight will fall off!). I'm not going to stress myself on it, it doesn't do me or my family any good.

What are some of your broken resolutions of years past?
Do you make the same resolution year after year?
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*This post was written as part of Bloggy Moms: The Blog Dare. Todays writing prompt was - Broken resolutions of years past.....If you'd like to participate feel free to link up with your own post at the link posted above.*